Peace! Breathe!
There are many shifts and changes in the works. You near a precipice between the old and the new. You will be starting new beginnings. You see the old trying to hold on and maintain control. You see the level of fear grow so that the ego may feed on it. When you stop feeding the fear it diminishes. What you feed will grow. Awareness is different from keeping your focus on something. You need to learn to refocus on where your attention needs to be. Look at the root cause of what is showing up. The source will help you heal and find your way with whatever is manifesting.
The Light